Current mood:	rejuvenated
Current music:	Christina Milian vs Pappa Roach - Tell me my last resort

sometimes we say things that are on the mean side, to people we once loved...and on some level still love. They hurt, but they're how we feel on the inside. I found a song to discribe how I feel, I give you "New Disease" by Spineshank

Now I can take this, everything I know
Realize that I'm nothing I wanted to be
I can never change anything I've done
Because it's the only this I have left

Blame myself again for what I didn't do
Never even knew it was coming from me
It changed the way I felt, the worst is yet to come
Because I have gone too far now

Nobody
Changed my mind
And it leads me to a new disease
Somebody
Let it die
But it still becomes a new disease

Is this all worth what this has done to me?
Watered down my senses and turned them on me

F**k morality and everything I know
If I didn't hate this than I couldn't cope
Impersonate myself for what I used to be
Denial is all that's left now

Nobody
Changed my mind
And it leads me to a new disease
Somebody
Let it die
But it still becomes a new disease

Seething in my head
I'm suffering instead
I can't remember why
This meant so much to me

Doubt
Did I ever want this?
It's all I could've been, it's all I would've been
Doubt
Did I ever want this?
It's all I've ever been, it's all I'll ever be

Seething in my head
I'm suffering instead
I can't remember why
This meant so much to me

Nobody
Changed my mind
And it leads me to a new disease
Somebody
Let it die
But it still becomes a new disease

i've shed my tears, i've taken my wounds, i've lost my fair share of sleep. It's time for me to evolve and move on and we'll leave the rest in the hands of fate.