?

Log in

No account? Create an account
...bright lights. [entries|friends|calendar]
Wolfwood

[ website | Wolfwood Investigations Inc. ]
[ userinfo | livejournal userinfo ]
[ calendar | livejournal calendar ]

I hate people [28 Nov 2005|01:29pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]

Kay, I fell unloading my new bed this weekend and jarredmy knee nine ways from sunday, it's nine diffrent colors and it hurts like a son of a bitch. So needless to say, i'm nine diffrent kinds of angry and pissed off right now. That coupled with the fact that my "friend" Holly is getting on my last nerve with rubbing her Yaoi crap in my face. I'm no homaphobe or nothhin, but there is just some crap I dont want to hear, it's grose and sexually perverse. People down here are growing tired of it and her high school mentality, if she doesnt learn to be a mature adult and grow the hell up soon, I can not be held responceable for my actions. Jesus H Christ, it's really no wonder half the game room staff hates our little group. Allright i'm done, i'm going to go and try to calm down. Bare in mind i'd NEVER hit a woman, but this girl is cruseing for some verbal abuse.

Cross the Street

early morning stuffs [23 Nov 2005|09:56am]
[ mood | numb ]

if anyone cares, i've decided to try and quit smokeing. It's been hard to, what with the mess of stress this simester has brought to me. I dont try and downplay my part in it at all, no sir, what I did or did not do is irrelivent, I broke someones heart and I still feel like the lowest of the low, I know she still veiws me with a level of hatred and thats ok....she's earned the right to do that after what happened. And hey, she's happy and thats all that matters to me, regardless if I dont like her boyfriend at all [for reasons that stretch beyond the fact of the two of them]. But hey, i've got Red, Abdull, his brother,Nate and those guys in the chatbox, those are some of the best friends I could ask for, they've been there for me when I started to question who was standing on what side of the line. They agree with me on veiws of certain unnamed individuals, and that helps the venting process a whole lot. This whole situation has forced an evolution in my personality that i'm not entirely sure is a good thing...sure i've got my anger problem under controll for the most part....but I feel hollow, empty and alone...like part of me is dead to the world, I feel numb and cold and the things I once did with a passion I find no pleasure in, like the cigs and the occasional drink, which is why i'm quitting. I hope I can, it'd be nice to be smoke free and with the ban going into effect here soon in my state, hell, better now than later and cost myself a hundred dollars or more

Cross the Street

My computer is possesed by the debil [04 Nov 2005|01:27am]
[ mood | enraged ]

three hours....three bleeding hours i'm in Video Explosion working on a Hellsing OVA / Anime AMV to The Rza "Fatal" from the Blade Trinity soundtrack and my COMPUTER FROZE UP! Blue screen of death and the whole ninety yards. I swear the thing only acts up when I need it the most. Dont get me wrong, i'm gratefull for the thing because i've allways wanted a laptop...but my temper with it is short. Then again my temper is short with everything. I'm working on that though, or at least the lady i'm seeing is telling me i'm getting better...we'll see

1 Jaywalkers || Cross the Street

the worlds biggest asshole [24 Oct 2005|09:50am]
[ mood | irritated ]

wow I am a prick are'nt I? I was underslept, over caffinated and what I said to AmberXenon over the phone and on the LJ here was a might out of line. I hope I can be forgiven [again -_-;] in time. In other news, DDR alumni Captan Jack passed, and fan peoples weeped. He should have been smart and taken his blood pressure meds. I call de de dee on this one.

Cross the Street

[23 Oct 2005|12:11am]
[ mood | rejuvenated ]

sometimes we say things that are on the mean side, to people we once loved...and on some level still love. They hurt, but they're how we feel on the inside. I found a song to discribe how I feel, I give you "New Disease" by Spineshank

Now I can take this, everything I know
Realize that I'm nothing I wanted to be
I can never change anything I've done
Because it's the only this I have left

Blame myself again for what I didn't do
Never even knew it was coming from me
It changed the way I felt, the worst is yet to come
Because I have gone too far now

Nobody
Changed my mind
And it leads me to a new disease
Somebody
Let it die
But it still becomes a new disease

Is this all worth what this has done to me?
Watered down my senses and turned them on me

F**k morality and everything I know
If I didn't hate this than I couldn't cope
Impersonate myself for what I used to be
Denial is all that's left now

Nobody
Changed my mind
And it leads me to a new disease
Somebody
Let it die
But it still becomes a new disease

Seething in my head
I'm suffering instead
I can't remember why
This meant so much to me

Doubt
Did I ever want this?
It's all I could've been, it's all I would've been
Doubt
Did I ever want this?
It's all I've ever been, it's all I'll ever be

Seething in my head
I'm suffering instead
I can't remember why
This meant so much to me

Nobody
Changed my mind
And it leads me to a new disease
Somebody
Let it die
But it still becomes a new disease

i've shed my tears, i've taken my wounds, i've lost my fair share of sleep. It's time for me to evolve and move on and we'll leave the rest in the hands of fate.

1 Jaywalkers || Cross the Street

Fight Music [09 Oct 2005|03:05pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]

it's hard sometimes....to move on from a love you thought, deep in your heart and mind....that you hoped would last forever. I question in this late hour wether or not this is all to piss me off, if so, I know I deserve it...if not, then I wish her the best of luck and I hope she's happy with him. Do I still love her? Yes, but i'm tired of being an all day sucker, a puppydog waiting for it's master to come back. She clames she wants to be friends, and thats ok for as long as we can stand eachother. But the punching and kicking anytime she and her friends feel like it has to end. No more kicking, no more punching, no more drawing blood with fingernails when I touch them. I am no ones man-bitch and I refuse to be a punching bag. I will be treated with respect by all or i'm gone, i'll go join the guys on the third floor who wont flip out if a frisbee accidentally nips the side of there head. I swear to god sometimes, i'm surrounded by psycho retards...problem is I like some of them. But there are the select few, and I wont name names, just gender...certain guys who are going to far and need the shite kicked out of them

3 Jaywalkers || Cross the Street

crossroads [21 Feb 2005|07:39am]
[ mood | contemplative ]

I come to a crossroads in my life this morrow, after a lengthly ride/yellfest with my father (I don't drive right now for my own reasons). And while he and I don't have the smoothest of relationships, he's right about a couple of things, most predominently: I am a slacker

if there is something in this world that is importent, I will put it off till the last second. This is true with studying, calling my girl, cleaning my room, ect.

If I am to be the police officer I truely wish to be, I must get in shape, I must get some range time in and hone my 5ki11z, I must take my schoolwork (math for the most part) more seriously...I must do a lot of things


...but I worry, because I fear on some levels it is a looseing battle I am fighting...can I do this when I have no real drive or willpower of my own? I dunno, it'll be tough...

....but then again, what in my life has ever been easy?

2 Jaywalkers || Cross the Street

hireing process...god help me [09 Feb 2005|09:30am]
I have started hireing my staff to help run things arround here...




Kakyuu = my secretary

Helios = snitch / the Doyle to my Angel...god help me -_-;
2 Jaywalkers || Cross the Street

the enevitablities of life and death [08 Feb 2005|11:16pm]
[ mood | sad ]

Pokey Davis


1989 ~ 2005



deticated to the best dog a boy could ever have,
you'll be missed dear friend. I love you

1 Jaywalkers || Cross the Street

PGSM in general [08 Feb 2005|10:01am]
[ mood | groggy ]

I think it is only fair to start the rampant bashing of all things P.G.S.M. by bashing the very show at it's core...so I shall begin:


First off, I fully understand that these are teeny-bopper Japanese models who have never had an ounce of combat training, never seen a minute of l33t wire fight training...BUT COME ON!!!

I meen, first off, the girl playing Usagi is totally unbelievable. It's like they randomly picked a girl out of the crowd and went "ummm...we pick j00"

could'nt they have sprung the extra yen and hired someone with marginal acting skills? It's not like theres a shortage of underage big-breasted Japanese teenage actresses is there?

...and then there's Luna...for the love of sweet lord. Salem on Sabrina the Teenage Witch was more believable to me

...a stuffed animal?!

...I think Nako's getting senile folks

1 Jaywalkers || Cross the Street

open for bizzy [08 Feb 2005|09:43am]
[ mood | tired ]

j00...

yea, we opened our doors...but the layout is a temp while I decide what the hell I want to put up here

some thing funny...

something whitty...

...something that says, angsty teen age-

...wait, thats every other Live Journal...sorry, my bad

i'll come up with something

1 Jaywalkers || Cross the Street

Test... [07 Feb 2005|09:34pm]
Go ahead and delete this entry when you see it, Jordan, and change your pw back.

-harmonies
Cross the Street

navigation
[ viewing | most recent entries ]